Once again thanks for all the responses!
About my CVW: It was in early February, dark ages. It was cold, dark, and snowing. I felt the camaraderie of the company my host was in, I loved the food (weird? I'll eat anything anyway, but I actually loved King Hall and Drydock), wasn't too fond of playing kill the carrier freezing out in the snow and laying in it at 5:30 am, but it was definitely an experience. Slept with plebes in class, etc.
What I mean about my CVW experience is that I feel most applicants go there and completely know that USNA is for them. They loved it and they are 100% reassured on their decision. I didn't feel that at all. But I didn't feel like I should stop my pursuit either.
This is what worries me: When I left the CVW and my parents picked me up, I felt free, and disappointed that I didn't get that "100% I love and want this" feeling. I went that Saturday to UMD where my brother was and the exact opposite of what I just lived for two days. Walked into his off-campus frat-house, sticky floors from the party before, cups everywhere, etc. I didn't know what to think of the whole experience. The plebes were great, and they all said their reason for being there was to serve in the military. Like I previously stated, my family is not military and thinking about being an officer in the military hasn't even crossed my mind until two summers ago.
Perhaps some of my initial application and reapplication was my ego. I wanted to be the best. But as things went on, I really took in everything the process showed me and began thinking seriously about it. I don't want to make the wrong decision. I don't want to go there and say, "what were you thinking, you felt this way during the CVW why did you go?"
Looking at what USNA has to offer for me and all the opportunities and greatness it entails, I love it. Anyone in their right mind would. It becomes much more difficult when you are given that opportunity and YOU have to go through with it. YOU are the one who has to do it. It's easy for many to say that it is ridiculous for someone to decline the appointment, but given such a drastic change and huge opportunity, it's daunting as hell to say the least. I know I can perform there. I know I have the grades, I know I'm physically fit. It's my mentality and happiness. I need to think about the ultimate goal--Naval Officer. I don't even know which path I'd choose out the academy. Probably SWO or Aviation/Pilot? See these are the things that many applicants have that I do not. I don't have that military officer thought that some do. They may know "I want to fly for the marines, or I want to be a submarine officer," but I honestly have no clue. These are the things that worry me.