I appreciate any helpful replies. I am a MSIII contracted cadet who was compressed for MSI and MSII year and took the SMP option at the same time I joined ROTC (I did not go to basic or AIT). I joined late in my college career, my senior year, after wanting a change in my life and to serve my country. I researched my options to the best extent I could to make sure it was right for me. My first year was fine, I started getting in better shape, developing more discipline, and SLOWLY getting used to being in the military, although my GPA dropped slightly. However, this current year has been extremely hard for me, I've had problems sleeping every night, stomach aches, and I've been extremely depressed about my future and my life. After 3 other cadets dropped the program last semester, i am now at the very bottom of the OML and went from a 260 on my PT test to not being able to pass it, or barely pass it on some days due to a lack of sleep or stress. I am also about to get on ADD and depression medicine, which I know you cannot be taking if you want to commission. I am hoping this medicine will help me feel better about life because right now I don't even clean my room or get my stuff done on time. 1. My question is, what will happen to me if I tell my PMS and cadre I am about to get on this medicine, and that I want out? Will I have to revert back to my SMP contract and serve in the national guard? 2. Also I have a bunch of gear from my unit and my college from ROTC. Will i just have to return it or pay for it since i've been using it for a year and a half? 3. Do I have to pay back my stipend, Summer AT money, or anything else? 4. Does this go on my job record like a dishonorable discharge? Will I have problems finding a job with my degree (Political Science) if I do this? 5. I am willing to pay back the Army for the tuition exemption this past year. I just want to know what will happen to me. Thanks.