So, I made It through I day, first phone call, two sad letters from DS, didn't even shed a tear in his 18th bday(this past Monday). We , in fact, got his first happy letter that he got to raise the American flag with color guard ON his bday. Now, I can't seem to shut off the water works. What the heck - I'm not a crier, don't even seem to get emotional when it's "appropriate" !! Is this normal? I can't help but to think Im sad because his happiness gives a permanence to his absence? All I can think is "why didn't you take the full ride to cal poly slo"?. Ugh - I need words of encouragement!