There have been two long time wise posters that have calmed my waters over & over and all for different reasons. That said I'm taking their best advise.
Building memories with my son and not the process... The process itself will all be over soon and that will then be nothing but a distant memory. The memories with our son will be long lasting.
Like most our DS had his package completed in late June, he is calmer than we are. Even with the NROTC scholarship in hand and his 1st choice school the thought of when lingers; however, the parental memories come back into play and it is calming once again.
Our DS may have just had his last B-day at home on Saturday. It may be many years before he has another with us. He had a great day and it was nice to be with him.
Living life, loving the dream, and building the memories...
All the best!