Feeling Undeserving of Appointment

I've accepted my appointment for the Class of 2021, but for some reason I can't kick the feeling that I don't deserve it. I've known for a while that I wanted to be in the military, but I started the process later than most people. It wasn't until the beginning of my senior year that I decided I wanted to apply to the Academy. I'm a fairly mediocre student, just slightly above the average GPA & ACT of appointees. I was barely involved in my school - I didn't play any sports during high school, I was only involved in 3 extracurricular activities, and a leader in only 1 of them. For the most part I went to school, and left for work right after. I'm not the most physically fit; I barely scraped by in the CFA (1 point away from being DQ'd).

I've been reading this forum for a solid amount of time, and seeing all the students here that are much more qualified than I am being turned down makes me feel a little guilty for being accepted. Don't get me wrong - I am extremely blessed to have this opportunity, and I am fully committed to being to the best officer I can be. I just can't help but feel a little alienated from the majority of people here.

Congrats on your appointment! There's more to your application package than just GPA and ACT. You met USAFA's criteria for whole person concept and would be a good fit for this year's class. How did you know you barely scrapped by 1 point on the CFA? What are you hoping to major in? Your appointment also gives hope to others with a similar application description.
 
I truly doubt that this was a troll post, but I'll bite. I have no idea of any demographic of the poster except he is a male, so my comments are general. He cannot see any outstanding characteristics in himself that would make him in that top 12-17% (depending on your source), so the unsaid underlying assumption is that he got in on something other than merit. Laying aside the arguments of fairness to the non-recepients of this selection system, this post demonstrates one glaring downside to the recipients: the inevitable self-doubt that arises. Unlike the unusually self-reflective response of this poster, the more usual response to self-doubt is defensiveness. Being defensive generally does not lead to cohesiveness with those around you and can lead instead to a chip on one's shoulder which is an inherent disadvantage in entering an institution that emphasizes cohesiveness.
Many arguments that have defended the non-merit based aspects of the selection process have emphasized leadership representing the diversity of the troops led. However, which diversity? Does gender trump religion? Does race trump sexual orientation? And, is the endpoint diversity or representation? Although it would be hard to fish up the Wall Street Journal article supporting this assertion, a bigger percentage of enlisted are from rural areas and by percentage of population more likely to come from southern states. I doubt that academy admissions represent those numbers.
Above posts emphasize (mainly for altruistic reasons) the seeming omniscience of academy selection committees in selecting the best candidates for future officers. However, an independent study posted on this forum of some of the academies, which the Air Force Academy participated in, showed that the academy's committee scores was the least indicative indicator among many of future success as an officer. This fact is really not surprising as the academy states it is evaluating the "whole person," but for the vast majority of candidates the committee has never met them in person. Certainly hard to evaluate the whole person from a distance on paper, unless the whole person concept is malleable based upon the demographics the academy wishes to pursue any particular year.
Again, these comments are not specific to this poster. I think, like those above, that the very humility the poster is demonstrating will more than compensate for any deficiencies in numbers. I just think the Academy selection committee would be hard pressed to know this on the information they receive. I am sure they got it right this time, though.
Very interested read, thank you for your contribution.
 
I've accepted my appointment for the Class of 2021, but for some reason I can't kick the feeling that I don't deserve it. I've known for a while that I wanted to be in the military, but I started the process later than most people. It wasn't until the beginning of my senior year that I decided I wanted to apply to the Academy. I'm a fairly mediocre student, just slightly above the average GPA & ACT of appointees. I was barely involved in my school - I didn't play any sports during high school, I was only involved in 3 extracurricular activities, and a leader in only 1 of them. For the most part I went to school, and left for work right after. I'm not the most physically fit; I barely scraped by in the CFA (1 point away from being DQ'd).

I've been reading this forum for a solid amount of time, and seeing all the students here that are much more qualified than I am being turned down makes me feel a little guilty for being accepted. Don't get me wrong - I am extremely blessed to have this opportunity, and I am fully committed to being to the best officer I can be. I just can't help but feel a little alienated from the majority of people here.

Congrats on your appointment! There's more to your application package than just GPA and ACT. You met USAFA's criteria for whole person concept and would be a good fit for this year's class. How did you know you barely scrapped by 1 point on the CFA? What are you hoping to major in? Your appointment also gives hope to others with a similar application description.
According to the unwritten minimums on the CFA, you must get at least 55 ft on the basketball throw, or a sub-8 minute mile, etc. in order to pass. I originally intended on majoring in mechanical engineering because that's what people pushed me to however I've had a change of heart and decided to major in biology or biochemistry with the hopes of attending medical school.
 
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Follow your heart on your major.... whether you make medical school or not. You'll have enough STEM courses that you ought to be able to manage engineers if things go that route.
 
The competition for a non-diversity, high school graduating male is extremely high. Can you be more specific about your qualifications? SAT? Awards? What geograhic area or state? That would help us figure out why the academy finds your application more attractive than you seem to feel.
 
The competition for a non-diversity, high school graduating male is extremely high. Can you be more specific about your qualifications? SAT? Awards? What geograhic area or state? That would help us figure out why the academy finds your application more attractive than you seem to feel.
If I was the OP, I would not be posting my info to satisfy the curiosity of others. It will hone in who he (probably) is and as a bonus, he would be inviting "special treatment" during basic.;) Plus, I don't know if I would want the current academy admissions to see my posts and knowing who I am. He has been cryptic enough for other cadets. If he is smart, he will continue to dodge those specific questions. Actually, giving CFA specifics and GPA's already shows a lot of info (more than I would feel comfortable doing).
 
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OP - congrats on your appointment. As others have said, AFA definitely sees something in you to offer you an appointment and once offered an appointment and you enter this summer, there are no levels of who is more deserving or who is more worthy.

In some respects, posts on this forum can have an impact like facebook. (I think I recall a study about facebook and how it lowers viewers self esteem :)). People post what they want you to see and it isn't always the whole picture. Don't let that impact you. Set your mind to it and you will do great.
 
If I was the OP, I would not be posting my info to satisfy the curiosity of others. It will hone in who he (probably) is and as a bonus, he would be inviting "special treatment" during basic.;) Plus, I don't know if I would want the current academy admissions to see my posts and knowing who I am. He has been cryptic enough for other cadets. If he is smart, he will continue to dodge those specific questions. Actually, giving CFA specifics and GPA's already shows a lot of info (more than I would feel comfortable doing).

I agree fully - the criteria reviewed by the selection board is no longer important - zeno now has an appointment and his focus should now be 100% on making the best of his opportunity.
 
The competition for a non-diversity, high school graduating male is extremely high. Can you be more specific about your qualifications? SAT? Awards? What geograhic area or state? That would help us figure out why the academy finds your application more attractive than you seem to feel.
If I was the OP, I would not be posting my info to satisfy the curiosity of others. It will hone in who he (probably) is and as a bonus, he would be inviting "special treatment" during basic.;) Plus, I don't know if I would want the current academy admissions to see my posts and knowing who I am. He has been cryptic enough for other cadets. If he is smart, he will continue to dodge those specific questions. Actually, giving CFA specifics and GPA's already shows a lot of info (more than I would feel comfortable doing).
 
The competition for a non-diversity, high school graduating male is extremely high. Can you be more specific about your qualifications? SAT? Awards? What geograhic area or state? That would help us figure out why the academy finds your application more attractive than you seem to feel.
If I was the OP, I would not be posting my info to satisfy the curiosity of others. It will hone in who he (probably) is and as a bonus, he would be inviting "special treatment" during basic.;) Plus, I don't know if I would want the current academy admissions to see my posts and knowing who I am. He has been cryptic enough for other cadets. If he is smart, he will continue to dodge those specific questions. Actually, giving CFA specifics and GPA's already shows a lot of info (more than I would feel comfortable doing).
Great advice, I was hoping to keep a low profile and for that reason I won't be answering any other personal questions like statistics or anything of the sort.
 
Sage advice. But... You can write 1200 SAT, from California without giving away your identity.

I also think the whole "watch out for the upperclassmen" thing is overblown. But giving out a little info isn't incriminating.

I'm still wondering if this whole post is legit.
 
Follow your heart on your major.... whether you make medical school or not. You'll have enough STEM courses that you ought to be able to manage engineers if things go that route.
Thank you for the insight. I'm definitely still struggling on what major to decide on.
 
Sage advice. But... You can write 1200 SAT, from California without giving away your identity.

I also think the whole "watch out for the upperclassmen" thing is overblown. But giving out a little info isn't incriminating.

I'm still wondering if this whole post is legit.
I understand, but I'd still like to remain as anonymous as possible just in case something backfires on me. If you'd really like answers to some questions, you can feel free to private message me.
 
I've accepted my appointment for the Class of 2021, but for some reason I can't kick the feeling that I don't deserve it. I've known for a while that I wanted to be in the military, but I started the process later than most people. It wasn't until the beginning of my senior year that I decided I wanted to apply to the Academy. I'm a fairly mediocre student, just slightly above the average GPA & ACT of appointees. I was barely involved in my school - I didn't play any sports during high school, I was only involved in 3 extracurricular activities, and a leader in only 1 of them. For the most part I went to school, and left for work right after. I'm not the most physically fit; I barely scraped by in the CFA (1 point away from being DQ'd).

I've been reading this forum for a solid amount of time, and seeing all the students here that are much more qualified than I am being turned down makes me feel a little guilty for being accepted. Don't get me wrong - I am extremely blessed to have this opportunity, and I am fully committed to being to the best officer I can be. I just can't help but feel a little alienated from the majority of people here.
Sometimes you just gotta fake it till you make it!
 
Like FMHS mentioned previously, Zeno's qualifications are no longer germane to the conversation. As I mentioned in my initial post in this thread, "You're Pregnant, or You're Not Pregnant". How far along or more; isn't relative. You have been appointed. It doesn't matter what your scores are.

And even if Zeno did reveal his entire application, and even if you knew his entire WCS scores, it still wouldn't answer any questions. Why? Because you have no idea of the other 1200 appointees and their scores, or the other 10,000 who didn't receive an appointment and their scores.

So, in the immortal words of Bill Murray in the classic "MEATBALLS". "IT JUST DOESN'T MATTER"

I've seen 36 ACT and 1600 SAT NOT GET an appointment. And I've seen 27 ACT and similar SAT GET an appointment. So whatever scores, gpa, ec, etc. Zeno got....... "IT JUST DOESN'T MATTER".
 
Am I the only person who thinks this person is yanking everyone's chain?

On the off chance that you are for real, take the Stuart Smalley mantra along with you:


Worked for him. He became a US Senator.
 
Follow your heart on your major.... whether you make medical school or not. You'll have enough STEM courses that you ought to be able to manage engineers if things go that route.
Thank you for the insight. I'm definitely still struggling on what major to decide on.
If I was you, I'd reach out to someone you know who is a doctor (military doc would be even better) as well as a mechanical engineer. Better yet, shadow with a few. IMHO, during HS is not too early to remove careers off of your short list.
 
Am I the only person who thinks this person is yanking everyone's chain?

On the off chance that you are for real, take the Stuart Smalley mantra along with you:
It crossed my mind.
Sage advice. But... You can write 1200 SAT, from California without giving away your identity.

I also think the whole "watch out for the upperclassmen" thing is overblown. But giving out a little info isn't incriminating.

I'm still wondering if this whole post is legit.
In his 1st post, he said he had "slightly above average ACT and GPA" by USAFA standards. That would mean he is obviously competitive. He never alluded to his ethnicity, either (I'm referring to your post that white males have it tougher even though USAFA is chalk full of white males).
 
Zeno, you are not alone. You may not realize that what you are feeling is very common among admittees to highly selective schools. One of our sons is at such a school, and he says it is rampant there. It's called "Imposter Syndrome." In fact, read this MIT admissions blog post - it's common there too!
http://mitadmissions.org/blogs/entry/there-are-no-imposters-in-the-class-of-2018

Congratulations on your appointment!
 
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