SamuelSrpska
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So I am an MSI in an ARMY ROTC program.I love ROTC, I love the people, I love classes and what I am studying (International relations and russian). But I am having doubts now before contracting. I always wanted to serve and want to more than anything but I do not know if being an officer is right for me. I know this sounds bad but I hate the uncertainty of potentially getting a job that I do not want and a responsibility that I might not fully want to take on (the thought of leading an infantry platoon gives me pause to say the least). I feel like where I will really excel is as a CTI in the Navy or maybe Army Civil Affairs. I just want to do the hands on ****. I want to immerse in the language and do that quietly, I want the top security clearance and the intensive language training. I don’t know if it is selfish, but it can’t be anymore selfish than doing something i may not have my heart in. The thing is I already feel bad for my parents who are really helping me through school with the cost, I don’t want to let others in ROTC down and the uncertainty of debt and enlisting after school scares me. I could drop out and enlist now but I really like classes and got a decent gpa this year (3.65) i likely can get a 3YR and commission as an army officer but may wait until after I graduate and enlist. Idk if I am an idiot for thinking this, someone please help and thanks for reading and any advice