I am currently an MS1 on a 4 year army rotc scholarship and For what seems like my whole life I have wanted to be an officer in the army. At the begining of my first semester I began to have misgivings about if i really want to become an officer or not. As the semester began i subdued those feelings and actively participated in ROTC. I enjoyed it very much and did very well. The cadre like me and I like them, I also enjoyed being around the other cadets. As the semester came to a close, all the misgivings came back. I noticed myself already counting down my service obligations. I also keep thinking about being away from family and the strain it can put on my relationships. I know this decision is mine to make, but some advice or even personal experience would be appreciated. Thanks in advance.