Good afternoon, after a long time of deliberation since the day I got on the plane for BCT I am pretty sure that USAFA is not for me. i wasn't going to quit during BCT simply because I would look like and feel like a fool. I wasn't going to drop during the first month because it wouldn't be accurate of the academic year, but now I have the feel of what my life is going to be like. I want to change this world and be involved in my community on a more personable level than USAFA is offering me and the aspect of the Air Force simply does not coincide with my life goals. I want to be a politician, I want to be a thinker and innovator being involved with more things than warfighting and destruction, I want to be able to spend time with my family and not be hung up on work and school all the time because the most common theme in movies related to careers is people working too hard and losing sight of what matters most (time, family, experiences, and friends).
On top of this, the only friend I have here is my roommate and I basically do not "click" with anyone here. I've joined multiple clubs and dropped two after learning that I don't like the people in them and I don't think the clubs get enough support.
The idea of "waiting" until recognition poses two problems
1. It's not the doolie year that's stressing me, it's the idea of the Air Force.
2. The one thing you don't get back in life is time and that's the one thing I'd be losing the most of.
Now I have to decide whether to transfer at the end of the semester or leave now and apply as a freshman student for the 2019-2020 school year. The money will not be an issue for school as I have multiple scholarships and a job lined up at home, however, I must decide whether it's better to apply as a freshman or a transfer applicant from USAFA. Currently, my GPA is a 2.85 and I only seeing it getting worse because "doolie year" simply doesn't let you put your time where you want it as there are too many mandatory events that I have zero cares in the world about such as the de-humanizing K-bowls and training sessions.
With the argument being presented to me that my best option is to stay at USAFA because my future is "safe" and I will have a guaranteed job does not matter to me because it's not the life I want to live. Sure, I'll be able to "5 and dive" but there's no point to be in the Air Force if it's simply not how I think I can change the world. I believe I can change the world in a more effective way than following tradition, which is how most history is made. As Steve Jobs once stated, " the people who are crazy enough to think that they can change the world, are the ones who do."
Should I apply as a freshman student to my top schools again by dropping in the near future and attending my state school for the 2nd semester or apply as a transfer student with a realllyy low GPA compared to high school and the image that I'm "giving up"? Any guidance would be appreciated. Thank you in advance.
On top of this, the only friend I have here is my roommate and I basically do not "click" with anyone here. I've joined multiple clubs and dropped two after learning that I don't like the people in them and I don't think the clubs get enough support.
The idea of "waiting" until recognition poses two problems
1. It's not the doolie year that's stressing me, it's the idea of the Air Force.
2. The one thing you don't get back in life is time and that's the one thing I'd be losing the most of.
Now I have to decide whether to transfer at the end of the semester or leave now and apply as a freshman student for the 2019-2020 school year. The money will not be an issue for school as I have multiple scholarships and a job lined up at home, however, I must decide whether it's better to apply as a freshman or a transfer applicant from USAFA. Currently, my GPA is a 2.85 and I only seeing it getting worse because "doolie year" simply doesn't let you put your time where you want it as there are too many mandatory events that I have zero cares in the world about such as the de-humanizing K-bowls and training sessions.
With the argument being presented to me that my best option is to stay at USAFA because my future is "safe" and I will have a guaranteed job does not matter to me because it's not the life I want to live. Sure, I'll be able to "5 and dive" but there's no point to be in the Air Force if it's simply not how I think I can change the world. I believe I can change the world in a more effective way than following tradition, which is how most history is made. As Steve Jobs once stated, " the people who are crazy enough to think that they can change the world, are the ones who do."
Should I apply as a freshman student to my top schools again by dropping in the near future and attending my state school for the 2nd semester or apply as a transfer student with a realllyy low GPA compared to high school and the image that I'm "giving up"? Any guidance would be appreciated. Thank you in advance.