First of all...youth ain't it grand! I remember when Bullet and I were 1st married and I was pregnant with DS I asked him did you ever think that by the time you were 25 you would be married and be a Dad? Absolutely not was his reply. He believed that he wouldn't get married until he was @35. Life sometimes takes you on a different road than you ever planned.
Second of all...let's take it from the flipside. Life as a spouse was undeniably amazing. I would not have traded one job promotion for the world. When you find that right one you will know it. If they are the right one they will never mind being the mistress to the military. A very big part of love is wanting to see your mate smile. To know that they got to live their life without a
what if is something that you cherish for being a part of. I always knew that the 20 yrs would fly by, and my day would come where I get to live my dreams. I was the wife that said to Bullet, it's time to say goodby, I don't want to litter our children around the world. Our DS will be now following his Dad's footsteps and we are so proud of his choice. If you see it from that point it should be a big lightbulb...any child who felt that they resented moving and the parent being gone alot would not put themselves voluntarily into that situation. If you look through the thread we talk about military brats becoming spouses or AD...that is a huge testament.
Without the AF, I would have had a very successful career, yes, I gave it up to follow Bullet. However, without Bullet I would have never had so much happiness. I never saw him as being selfish and dragging many anywhere (okay Mt. Home Idaho would have never been on my list of places to visit). Without Bullet I would have never met my 2 very best friends in the world. My kids would have never learned that friends are family members that you choose. Without Bullet I wouldn't have seen AK and the northern lights or watched Moose eat blueberries outside of my diningroom window. Without him I would never know the hum of the electric milk cart in the morning in England. Without him I would never have spent hours playing spoons with my girlfriends while they were deployed or ha my weekly Tuesday morning coffee. Without him I would have never become the self reliant person that I am today. I worry for my boys about who they marry, b/c they might have an unrealistic view of what a Mom and wife is...I can guarantee you every military wife knows how to hang wallpaper, paint, fill nail holes (with toothpaste
), and most likely how to change a flat tire without ever asking the DH for help and they do this while running between 3 soccer fields and being snack person or why they have chicken pox! I hope that my boys get that I was a freak of nature and that it was not normal.
Never ever believe that you are being selfish for asking her to follow you...if she/he is the right one their bags will be packed before the orders are even cut! I use to laugh and say aren't we getting orders soon, my feet are getting itchy, and my body is telling me it's time to move. The excitement about going to a new base always makes the tears of saying goodby more bearable...also the reality is for the AF flyers you will see them again.
Just to add why I said it was time, it was because I knew if we stayed I would lose our kids. Their home would become wherever they graduated HS from or went to college and that was a price I didn't want to pay. I know we have lost DS to the AF and for him I am happy because he will have an amazing life, it's just hard to realize that I will most likely not be there for the birth of our grandchildren or to just pop over, but heck in 20 yrs he might become a beltway bandit too and be back home with us again.
I was proud to call myself an AF wife. I was proud that Bullet was willing to sacrifice everything he loved for people that he never met. No career can ever replace the emotional pride when you pin on their next rank and they acknowledge you as the reason they made it there. Most of all I learned something that I still hold dear in my heart and on my fridge
FREEDOM IS THE WORD THOSE PROTECTED BY NEVER TRULY KNOW THE MEANING OF...I do and no paycheck in the world will ever be as valuable as that.
BTW KPMum I agree, I still can hear the kids saying do we have to go see the Cherry Blossoms again or please not Williwaw (Portage Glacier), can't you just go without me!
Hornet you only think I am a rockstar because I can play Crud with the boys!...Another thing I would have never known without Bullet...the worlds best game...although Jeremiah Weed is something I could pass on knowing...sorry CC