I don't think you know what "bitter" means.
Well, you're correct on this statement! Since you know me. I don't know what bitter means, I don't re-define the meaning on a daily basis as you obviously. Even though I don't know you at all, I have read this pattern of dialog a few times from you towards others. Its not new at all.
I would encourage you to step away from the keyboard, step outside, feel the sun warm you. May be go take off those rusty wing tie downs, check for water in the fuel and feel the excitement of lift under those wings again. Who knows, you may crack a smile again.
Perhaps one day we could exchange a smile and not even know it was you or I.
Push Hard, Press Forward!!!