For years I have always wanted to be in the military, I guess I never grew out of playing soldier as a kid. I have had my eyes set on being a pilot in the Navy for a couple years now, thinking there was no other future for me, but as I get closer and closer, I find myself growing unsure. My dream is just to be in the cockpit of an airplane, and make that as my living. Whether it be military, corporate, regional, or the big leagues. I am really considering just going the civilian way. I keep asking myself this question: "Why do you really want to be in the Navy?" and I only have one response: to fly. To have the Navy pay my way through school, all my flight training, housing, etc etc. But I am worried about what would happen to me if I wouldn't get that aviator spot, or if something just didn't work out. I don't want to join for all the wrong reasons, I have always felt like I wanted to be in the military and now...it is drifting away from me. I don't want to end up making the wrong decision. As it currently stands, I don't have much hope on that NROTC scholarship, but I will still apply. I am a Junior right now, with a private pilot certificate, and this seems to be too early to have to be worrying about this kind of thing. I would appreciate any advice you would be willing to give. Thanks.