Hello, I'm an AS300 and have been contracted on scholarship for 3 years. I have never seen a therapist or counselor because I have always believed I can solve my own emotional problems with enough will power. I have had minor episodes of sadness and lack of motivation in the past for a couple months at a time.
However, this is worse than anything I've experienced in the past. Enough where if I were to see a therapist, I know for a fact they'd diagnose me with severe depression. I'm not quite sure what it is though. It feels like I'm a little crazy because it seems like I have two personalities. There is normal me and depressed me. Normal me is a normal functioning adult and feels just fine, but once a day or every other day, I break down into a depressed episode. I can't even explain why I'm sad. I just cry uncontrolabley and have no will to do anything or even want to live. But like I said, that's only sometime. I feel completely normal right now and can't even relate to that person.
I normally wouldn't consider telling anyone but it's getting more frequent and severe. It's unbearable when I'm in that state and I even has suicidal thoughts quite often, BUT I have complete control over my body and actions and would never harm myself.
My question is: if I were to tell someone and be diagnosed with depression or whatever, would I be DQ'd? I firmly believe I have the will power to push through it. I would never kill myself. The worst that would happen is I just hate my life for a little bit until I get over it and regain my mental strength.
However, this is worse than anything I've experienced in the past. Enough where if I were to see a therapist, I know for a fact they'd diagnose me with severe depression. I'm not quite sure what it is though. It feels like I'm a little crazy because it seems like I have two personalities. There is normal me and depressed me. Normal me is a normal functioning adult and feels just fine, but once a day or every other day, I break down into a depressed episode. I can't even explain why I'm sad. I just cry uncontrolabley and have no will to do anything or even want to live. But like I said, that's only sometime. I feel completely normal right now and can't even relate to that person.
I normally wouldn't consider telling anyone but it's getting more frequent and severe. It's unbearable when I'm in that state and I even has suicidal thoughts quite often, BUT I have complete control over my body and actions and would never harm myself.
My question is: if I were to tell someone and be diagnosed with depression or whatever, would I be DQ'd? I firmly believe I have the will power to push through it. I would never kill myself. The worst that would happen is I just hate my life for a little bit until I get over it and regain my mental strength.