Mail came earlier than usual this morning and I said my prayer unlocking the door to retrieve it. I feel badly sometimes thinking of those that have gotten their TWE's as I write this cause if you are still here reading this forum, you probably feel she is the lucky one to still have some hope. I worry so much about her these days. She's a good person who has never wanted much for herself. She's a minamalist and never needed accolades for her accomplishments. (of course being human, she liked them ). She's in college now and having a hard time relaxing and focusing on the here and now. I try to tease her and say this is nothing compared to what you will experience WHEN you get in (I have learned that saying IF brings out the dragon in her). I feel a bit indulgent writing about what seems like air at this moment and thinking how strange it has been for me to have somewhat lost the most important thing I've tried to show her since the moment she was placed into my arms....to believe in God and have faith in Him. I realize that all of you out there in this forumland feel the same and we are all in the same boat. I'm just really hoping that this boat grows into a Ship. My DD has certainly gone above and beyond swimming upstream and against many currents to get on that Ship and I am in awe and so proud of her. I reread what I just wrote and I have not LOST my faith.....but I just wish that I could trust the unkown............. Thanks for listening... Hang in there to All!