I am currently a youngster at USNA and have been going back and forth with the idea of leaving. There are many reasons as to why I am considering this and I really don't feel like I am clear headed enough to make the decision and I do not want to have regrets. I am a varsity athlete here and this is was the only school I applied to. I have never really had a strong desire for academics and have really had to work hard here at USNA to keep my grades decent. Coming back from spring break I am really struggling to find motivation to want to be here. Mentally I am not where I need to be due to some events in my family and things like that. Being at the academy and not really being able to handle those things or do things for me has really taken a toll on me. I have begun to resent being here and I feel as though I'm choosing opportunity over happiness and mental health. There were points in my life where I did want to serve in the military and I did think that this was the right fit for me. I believe that I could suffer through the next 7 years of my life but I don't know if I would be happy and I also don't know if I would do the best job I could at being an officer. I also don't want to waste this opportunity that I do have right now. I just don't want it to be at the expense of my happiness and my mental state. I don't really have a plan going forward if I were to leave, I would probably take the summer and the fall semester to take my time figuring out what I wanted to do and work on my mental health and apply to school again for the following spring semester.
I feel as though I am in a very hard place in my life because I know something has to change and I no longer want to feel trapped. I just want to ensure I'm making the right decision and I could really use some advice.
Thank you in advance.
I feel as though I am in a very hard place in my life because I know something has to change and I no longer want to feel trapped. I just want to ensure I'm making the right decision and I could really use some advice.
Thank you in advance.