Jboog12345
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I’m a senior in college and contracted as an Ms3 in army rotc. I was able to get a two year scholarship because even though I am senior I had about two years of courses left. This was because it took me a while to decide on my major which is finance. I feel like ROTC isn’t for me because it seems like no matter what I do in the program I do it badly. This is the first time I ever felt this way in any program. I try to the my best ability but I can’t seem to find the motivation to do army related studies, and I’m just overall demotivated. I have made the deans list twice at my school and consider myself relatively put together and successful but I cannot seem to keep the consistency, work ethic and success that would allow me the same in ROTC. I feel like I am running in place. The whole thing is surreal to me because I never had instances where I looked this bad and had such a negative self image of myself but it has inevitably manifested itself due to my many failures in rotc. I was the only ms3 who did not pass land navigation during a exercise and my running went from a 16 minute to a 20 minute.
I’ve been going to PT 3 times a week and it seems I’ve fell out of shape and been more out of shape then I ever was before joining army/going to PT. The whole thing is just weird. It makes me believe that ROTC is just not for me. Nothing quite seems to go right no matter how hard I try and I can’t seem to keep up the momentum of getting stuff done and getting it done right. I joined the army because I believe I had what it takes to be a leader. I have often led my whole life. I led an accounting team to good grades during accounting I but creating and amassing a team. I’ve done many projects and initiatives where I was the leader and things went well.
I come from an impoverished family, am a fist generation college student and I used to be in special needs, I was told that I should never major in any math or do anything mathematical but I’ve overcome that by majoring in finance and doing well in it by hard work ethic. I joined Rotc because I always wanted to serve my country. I was denied being enlisted when I graduated high school because of medical issues and was disqualified for a long time but I’ve made it to ROTC by not giving up and I can’t seem to maintain my commitment. I’m convinced it is not for me, I’ve been trying my hardest since September and here I am in almost February feeling like I’ve made no progress and did not become a better person like I wanted to be but a more lazy and demotivated person. My life is filled with rotc and sometimes when I dream all I can see it camouflage uniforms and, people yelling my last name, and and acronyms that I haven’t figured out yet. None of it in a good way. I’ve been bottling in these feelings for a long while and I need some opinions and thoughts. It makes me sad because I know my professor of military science really wants to me succeed and sometimes I see the disappoint and concern on his face when he views. I know he doesn’t mean any harm but it is demoralizing. Thanks.
I’ve been going to PT 3 times a week and it seems I’ve fell out of shape and been more out of shape then I ever was before joining army/going to PT. The whole thing is just weird. It makes me believe that ROTC is just not for me. Nothing quite seems to go right no matter how hard I try and I can’t seem to keep up the momentum of getting stuff done and getting it done right. I joined the army because I believe I had what it takes to be a leader. I have often led my whole life. I led an accounting team to good grades during accounting I but creating and amassing a team. I’ve done many projects and initiatives where I was the leader and things went well.
I come from an impoverished family, am a fist generation college student and I used to be in special needs, I was told that I should never major in any math or do anything mathematical but I’ve overcome that by majoring in finance and doing well in it by hard work ethic. I joined Rotc because I always wanted to serve my country. I was denied being enlisted when I graduated high school because of medical issues and was disqualified for a long time but I’ve made it to ROTC by not giving up and I can’t seem to maintain my commitment. I’m convinced it is not for me, I’ve been trying my hardest since September and here I am in almost February feeling like I’ve made no progress and did not become a better person like I wanted to be but a more lazy and demotivated person. My life is filled with rotc and sometimes when I dream all I can see it camouflage uniforms and, people yelling my last name, and and acronyms that I haven’t figured out yet. None of it in a good way. I’ve been bottling in these feelings for a long while and I need some opinions and thoughts. It makes me sad because I know my professor of military science really wants to me succeed and sometimes I see the disappoint and concern on his face when he views. I know he doesn’t mean any harm but it is demoralizing. Thanks.
