I had went to USAFAPS last year and I withdrew a month before graduation. USAFA had been my dream since I was 15 and I had applied 3 times before I finally got an appointment to the prep. I even went as far to enlist to make me getting in easier and because I couldn’t wait to be apart of the Air Force. I wish I could put into words how much love and dedication I had to the Air Force but that has shifted since my time at the prep school. I was not only surprised but disgusted at the lack of my classmates ability to do the right thing. This disappointments only built and built, and when I finally had one of the most traumatic events of my life happen to me and no one did anything to help me regardless of how much I asked, I finally left. It has been a few months, and I feel such a loss of identity without both the academy and the Air Force, but after everything that has happened a part of me regrets my decision to leave because I deserved to be there after all the hard work I had put in. I have thoughts of reapplying but in my eyes there is absolutely no way they would want me there nor would I get accepted. I guess I just need some help to finally let that dream die and move on.