Hello All, I am a sophomore cadet currently in AFROTC not on scholarship. I originally entered college on a 4 year technical scholarship, however, I ultimately decided that a technical degree was not in my best interest academically and dropped the scholarship just before the start of this year. Originally, I would have never been able to afford my school without the scholarship, but fortunately, I found another means of doing so. Anyway, I'll get right to the point. I've always had a desire to serve and my ultimate goal in life is to have a positive impact on people's lives. Coming from a military family, the military seemed like an easy choice. If I'm being honest, I did have a few misgivings my freshman year but I felt as though it was best to wait it out and adjust to the changes. I am by no means a bad cadet. I participate in the unit and perform my duties accordingly. I'm even ranked top third in the detachment. My biggest concern, however, is that I feel like I've been on autopilot all semester. In other words, I've kind of just been going through the motions and my heart doesn't really seem with it. I haven't lost any respect for the military or what the mission of the military is. If anything, I've gained more respect for the sacrifices our service members make everyday. But with Field Training coming up, the thought of being committed until I'm 26-28 is a little daunting. The fact that I no longer need ROTC as means for tuition has also made it easier to explore civilian careers. I know at the end of the day there is no "wrong" decision here and I have to do what is best for me, but any thoughts and opinions would be greatly appreciated. Thanks!